Weight concerns...

Weight blog
Ok so im doing this post about my weight, or should i say my lack of weight and why i am always this way.
This post isn't to make people feel sorry for me or to make other girls jealous, it is to show people that not every girl that is abnormally skinny has an eating disorder and not everyone wants to be stick thin.

Ever since I can remember I have been tiny. Small in height, small in shoes size, small in weight; pretty
Much just small in everything. Growing up my nickname was Minnie or titch as I was so small and my family always used to say, when you turn 11 or 12 you will put on weight, your brother filled out at that age. However when I finally got to that age, nothing happened.

Through secondary school I wasn't bullied for my weight but I was called anorexic* and bulimic* on the rare occasion! This didn't bother me that much because I knew it wasn't true, what was more hurtful was the fact I couldn't come back with an answer that would make these bullies stop thinking it, because I didn't know what the answer was myself. I was skinny, too skinny and I ate quite a bit for Someone my size, but I couldn't explain why I was the way I was.

The most weight I have ever been Is 7st but that was only for about a month and then I lost it again. My weight is pretty much opposite to most other people's in the sense I can drop weight at the click of a finger yet It will take me a long time to put on weight, and when it goes on all it takes is a little tiny illness or smaller amount of food and my weight will decrease again!

So why does this happen to me?

Until I was 17 no one knew. I had blood test after blood test which stressed me out even more as I hate the thought of losing blood, silly I know. I had prescription drugs coming out of my ears, you name it, I was on it, and I was diagnosed with anaemia, diabetes, bulimia! Again... You name it I was at some point diagnosed with it... But they were wrong.

One day I felt so unwell mum took me to hospital and finally I had loads of tests done on my body and they found out I had high calcium levels.
My calcium levels were the highest they had recorded in a young person for years. This meant I had to have a gland in my throat, the parathyroid gland, taken out as it was containing too much calcium.

Finally, after a month I had the operation and it went all o.k. Also I started to get more colour in my face and put on gradual weight. I went straight up to 7 stone from 6 in a month and managed to keep it for a while. I could eat without throwing up and I could actually enjoy food and the feeling of being full. It felt amazing.

To this day, I am so happy that I had that operation and that I don't have to deal with the symptoms of being sick and being so skinny anymore. I won't have to explain to people why I look so unwell without having a
Explanation as to why I look like that. I don't miss that at all.


I will always be small I think, I will never be massive but I look a healthier size than i did before hand. I am small frames anyway so luckily it suits my size, and I have filled out a little bit. The only thing I know have to deal with is when people don't believe that I eat a lot. But when they get to know me they realise I eat as much as the next person it just takes time for my body to gain weight.

I believe my story proves that just because one person is skinnier than another, it doesn't make them prettier, it doesn't make them healthier and it certainly doesn't make them more happy. Everyone has their own body and their own size and as long as they love it and are confident then other people will too.

It also proves that when someone Is underweight, it doesn't mean they always want to be that way. Just because someone is small doesn't mean they are anorexic, bulimic or are on strict diets. It could naturally just be the way they are. Just like overweight people may just have a condition or symptoms which makes them this way. Not everyone can control their health and their body size .

Blog 5 - Cover story dreams

I have so many dreams to just be able to write about fashion, relationships and advice. To be able to write my personal stories to everyone, to express my opinions and views and I guess that my major dream would to write in the pages of Cosmopolitan Magazine.


Cosmopolitan is my idol when it comes to magazines, it has everything, the juice, the advice pages, the real life stories, the star signs, you name it, it has it. Its everything that I would ever want ever month squeezed into 200 pages and therefore my cover story dreams would be to write for the advice/problem pages of cosmopolitan magazine.




 

Blog 4 - The coolest thing i found on google.

The coolest thing I have found on google is when you type in 'Do a barrel roll'.




Either try it yourself of check out this video!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TutBxEmKLXA

Blog 3 - 3 books you need to read

My top 3 books that i have read and would recommend are...

3) Wuthering Heights - i had to study and analyse this book for A-level English. It took a while to get into the story line but when you read a couple of chapters it turns into such a heartbreaking love story. its a very sad, moving read.

2) A child called it - this book is meant to be based on a true story about a boy growing up who was severely bullied by his mother. I read this book twice as i loved it so much and i cried both times. It is extremely sad and made me realize i was to have the family and upbringing i had. 

1) Noughts and Crosses - My favorite book that i have read is Noughts and Crosses. This book is based on a love story where two people cannot be together due to society, race and their families. I read this book on my plane journey home from Australia and the week after went out and bought the sequel..knife edge. 

Blog 2 - My last meal ever

So this is my first blog of 40 blogs. I have to do 40 blogs in 40 days all on different topics. This one is what would be my menu for my last meal ever, so I am going to write out my dream menu.

Starter

Garlic dough balls

Coca cola

Mains

Rare fillet steak with cheesy mash and mushroom sauce

A glass of rose wine

Desserts

Caramel cheesecake

Chocolate milkshake

Blog 1 - The One Thing I do everyday

Blog 1
The one thing I do everyday.

Okay so the second blog on this '40 blogs challenge' is the one thing I do everyday. So even though I do a lot of things everyday the most creative/different one I can think of is that I do something productive.
The one thing I do everyday is be productive.

I have a tendency to get bored easily and my brain switches off and I am quite impatient at times, so to keep myself occupied I always do something productive at least once a day. Usually it is clearing out my room, creating/designing cards or writing a blog or diary entry. Other days where I don't have time as I have work I make myself challenges  such a making a certain amount of tips at work or doing a Sudoku puzzle to keep my brain busy. This stops me from getting bored and also makes me feel like I have done something accomplishing throughout the day.

So the one thing I do everyday Is be productive!

40 Blogs in 40 days

I have recently wanted to broaden my horizons and blog about things other than fashion, and card-making so I searched for things to blog about online and I got a few tips. I found a few websites which gave me blog ideas and so I have decided to set myself a challenge of 40 blogs in 40 days and I am going to cover all of the blog ideas that I am interested in on these websites.

So here are the 40 topics.
 The menu for your last meal ever

·         The one thing I do everyday
        3 books you need to read 

·         The coolest thing I found on Google

·         Cover story dreams

·         A turning point

·         Thoughts winter brings to mind

·         Technology I can’t live without

·         What I wish they would invent

·         How I overcome challenges

·         Top 3 YouTube videos

·         The one thing I wish I’d known before…

·         If space travel were here today

·         My favourite quotes

·         Inspired creations

·         How to know you’re on the right path

·         What technology will be like in  10 years

·         Write a review on anything

·         Something from your past

·         Bad habits

·         My love affair with..

·         Fashion: your top 5 items

·         Top 5 movies

·         Something I could never give up

·         The once place in the world I want to go too

·         If I won the lottery what would I do

·         Dreaming big enough?

·         One person im glad I met

·         If  I were my mother I would tell myself

·         If I could interview someone dead

·         The hardest thing you've been through
        My bad habit 

·         9 things you just cant handle

·         The most difficult decision you ever made

·         Celebrity dinner, who would you invite

·         My favorite thing to do

·         An embarrassing moment

·         What makes you fall in love
        Why I blog 

Festive Card Designs

I have decided to design my own christmas cards for my close friends and family this year and these are what i have done so far 

Rough copy designs of crafts from a magazine 

Handcrafted Christmas present and sequin card 

Crafts from Poundland and The Range 

A holly design christmas card